Excerpt from my book, ADDICTED

The First Hit
“Yes, Shawn! Right there! Don’t stop!” I have no idea what I’m doing. But whatever it is, I must be doing it right. It’s like 45 degrees but the fog on the windows of my mom’s Cadillac tell a different story. Forget the cold outside. Inside it’s burning up! The clothes are in the front seat, we’re in the back. It’s pitch black outside and the only street lamp is at least 40 yards away, on the other side of the lake. Yeah, no one around to worry about getting caught. I can concentrate on Ebony and not coming too soon. That’s all that matters, right? How did I get into this? Into this situation? Into a relationship? Into this girl? Literally. I remember meeting Ebony through a friend. He was in ROTC and so was she. A senior, already 18, on her way out of school. I was only 16. Ignorant and cocky as fuck. I have the pretty skin, the braids, the charisma, and a smile that could bring peace to the wars in Somalia. Yeah, I said I was cocky. But Ebony was top of the high school totem pole. She was a dark chocolate, which usually isn’t what I go for, but damn. She was maybe an inch shorter than me but had such a small frame that next to me she seemed tiny. She had the long hair that I love, all hers. Deep brown eyes that let you know right off the back whether she was being real with you or bullshitting. And if I had known what thicker lips were good for at that time I would have definitely paid more attention to hers. She was athletic, as you could tell from her body. Everything tight and perky. Ass and chest big enough, but not too big to hinder her from being a jock. I probably wouldn’t even try to holler if it wasn’t for my boy. He caught me watching her one day and made the challenge that, til this day, stays in the back of my mind. “If you can pull her, then I’ll be convinced you can have any girl you want.” Right now I’m really feeling like that. She’s moaning and squirming underneath me. Far from the 15 minutes ago when she was in pain with tears in her eyes. This was her first time too. Now I’m the one feeling pain. Her nails are clawing on my back, and the sweat is stinging the scratches. But the pleasure I feel is no match for petty pain right now. That’s what Tylenol is for anyway. She’s begging me too kiss her. I peck her lips. Damn, its hot in here. She wants me to kiss her deeper. I want to but I’m scared. That might be too much. And I’m not entirely sure if she had an orgasm yet. I can’t bust now. So instead I go harder, making slow stabbing thrusts that I know are touching new ground. What did I just hit? I hope she’s okay. “Oh shit nigga! You got extra dick I didn’t know about?!” Yeah, she’s okay. I’m worried, yet proud of how I’m making her body convulse in every motion I try. I’m pretty good at this fucking thing! Every place I grab is slippery due to our bodies dripping with sweat, and now this new liquid that has gather around our thighs. “Did I cum?” Shit, I was only supposed to think that. Not say it! “No, baby! I did. Twice!” She did? She did. SHE DID! TWICE! That’s my dick! I did that! Whoa buddy, concentrate on the task at hand. You not done yet. Of course, cause once I get home with the car smelling like this I know I’m in trouble. Better enjoy myself now. The cocky nigga in me comes out. “Who runs this pussy? Who does this pussy call when it needs to be treated?” Did I just almost quote Ghostbusters? “Shawn runs this pussy! Oh Shawn.! Kiss me!”No way to escape it. She grabs the back of my neck and pulls me closer. Damn, I have never kissed so deeply in my life. I don’t know which was deeper inside her. My tongue or my dick! She’s jerking more than before. Something in me says “This is it champ! Time to make it official!” I start fucking with a passion. This is my pussy and I’m gonna make sure she knows it too. Her breathes are short and heavy. If the bitch is dying she gonna die happy! “I love you!” What the fuck? “Shawn, I love you!” Okay bitch, I heard you the first time. “Tell me you love me before I cum.” Uhh, now is NOT the time to lie. So I speed up my strokes, to fast and stabbing, knowing she can’t take it. “Love? You want love?” Hey, I’m just asking. “Yes Shawn. All of your love.”
Of course she does. “Well take this!” It isn’t love but she won’t know the difference. “Oh shit Shawn! I’m coming!” “Me too!” Wow, what a feeling! Yeah, that was definitely me this time. Glad I found a way to dodge the love bullet, I say that we ought to get going. “Yeah we should. Just let me get myself together for a moment.” Take your time. I’m good. Need to defrost these windows anyway. Ebony gets out the car to get some air and gather her bearings. Oh shit! “Baby, you okay?” “Yeah. It’s just hard for me to stand right now.” Yeah. I did that. The way I feel right now is incredible. I’ve never been high before, but this must be what it feels like. I don’t look at Ebony the same way anymore. She’s no longer the girl I wanted to get with. Even though she’s my first, I already think of her as a notch, a number. Sweet girl, but there’s gotta be more. “Get in the car. I’m taking you home.” I never smoked a day in my life. I’ve never used drugs. I don’t believe in gambling. I have yet to take a sip of alcohol. But as I look at this beautiful girl that I’ve just experienced paradise with I know one thing, SEX is my addiction!